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a recapturing of a dream in which i was thrown into the void where i stayed for an eternity before emerging in my ultimate form to play those who put me there in the game of 200​,​000 rules

by beige monk

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loveandceleste Truly ethereal experience; an expansion of what could be deemed emotion.
waves and waves of sounds clashing to surround in the wonder that is Aesha. <3 Favorite track: 0 the fool.
Violet Blume
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Violet Blume I want to fade into this record like it’s a setting sun Favorite track: doctors.
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grav into gradens *thx sound intensifies* Favorite track: masks, highways, sewers, cups, masks.
dean Mckay
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dean Mckay You’re actually incredible Favorite track: doctors.
jack of the mirror
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jack of the mirror -
i cannot get enough of this album. the textures, the sound, the feelings i get. its quite honestly my album of the year. i dont have to hear anything else this year. shin did an amazing job with this record and every second i get blessed over and over again with the amount of time, love, care, effort, and thought that went into this. dont even think about it, just buy it. its THAT good.

every song fits, every song makes sense.

may 22,222,222 stars shine over you. Favorite track: song for judge schreber.
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1.
0 the fool 05:42
aiwass sang in his starry-eyed flight our lady of the stars will be unveiled tonight i stared at his words in youthful stupor oh gods! oh God! i’m so in love with you!!! the angels sang, the telephone rang it is happening again the old saints cried, the martyrs revived everything according to plan o androgyne, o gynander, o babalon o ariadne, o dionysus, o therion o androgyne, o gynander, o babble on o airy אדני, o die-o'-nice-us, oath hair eon
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hours 02:33
endlessly i crawl towards the mountaintop in front of me keeping my promise i made so many years before i was born saturn makes my body sore as i climb further and further he materializes in the form of lactic acid which meets me thru my head
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headless 01:28
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the world’s so open where did GN in a bottle go? i wanted to show him all of the peculiar sounds of these incoming transmissions that have been floating solemnly across the ocean but i don’t think he’ll be around to see them pan is in the cities, pan is in the streets pan is in the internet of the anthropocene pan is in the fires, pan never dies pan is in the ever-rising brand new tides
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light dripping from my cavern walls flight from the place i barely got to know here right now i can feel my organs grinding on stop the sound listen a little closer cuz i don’t think about it too often & i don’t think i’m gonna learn too much from this song i don’t think it’ll go too wrong either tho oh mr crowley oh mr bowie u didn’t mean that much to me till i bore u in effigy here right now i can feel my nerves rushing up my spine stop the sound listen a little closer cuz i don’t think about it too often & i don’t think i’m gonna learn too much from this song i don’t think it’ll go too wrong either tho
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[in this dream, i was chowder from the cartoon. mung daal & a rival chef were punching me back & forth as a kind of contest between each other. the rival chef tricked mung daal by opening up the palm of the glove he was punching me with as i flew towards him, revealing a portal to an infinite & timeless abyss, & i fell in. "an eternity passed", & after that i came out of the abyss as hyper saiyan goku, meditating/hibernating in a cabin in one of the dragon ball god's planets. the titular enemy was the rival chef from earlier. i would've put "chowder" & "hyper saiyan goku" in the title but i figured it was convoluted enough already, &, copyright, or something,] u fall into my folds i carry u away wash away the night and wash away the day u beautiful creature i move ur mouth to sing beyond life and death i am truly the only thing void stretches on to surround me void stretches on to compound me void stretches on to create me chaos all around us with castles in between well i guess i’m here and it’s all too much the hole’s too deep down i guess i’m here and it’s way too much the sky’s too far out (hush) u talk too much void stretches on to surround me void stretches on to compound me void stretches on to replace me chaos all around us with castles in between
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[influencing machine sounds] in her old age, “the judge,” says fridoline, “was more of a mother than my mother to me” they say there’s crisis in God’s realm again there is friction between ormuzd & ariman so once i have mastered the power to go i’ll personally oversee the murder of flechsig’s soul there are a thousand lives i would synchronize if only i weren’t fleetingly improvised
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boy sit on this throne do they got gators where you’re from might twofold makes peace all alone laying on the street evil thing anthropocene watch my rhythm watch me sing i will stay in time with you both of our currents flowing thru beneath the mask there is another mask that looks exactly the same in a different color under the road there is a giant sewer that flows shit in the same direction as the cars go god i give you this cup fill me up w/ yr infinite love lay it on me god lay it on me god lay it on me god lay it on me god lay it on me lay it on me god lay it on me god lay it on me god lay it on me god lay it on me beneath the mask there is another mask that looks exactly the same in a different color under the road there is a giant sewer that flows shit in the same direction as the cars go
9.
words 02:47
ahh will it sound better if i make my words mirrors cuz my own voice is wooden how did you make yours glass like that?? do you practice when you’re alone? are u a magician? really i don’t mind wait is that what u meant? (u can only repeat 3 times) wait what did u mean then? sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, what did u mean then? vvvvvVvVvVvVvVvVVVRVRVRVVRVVRRRVRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrr don’t mind me i’m not here i speak thru a miles-long straw & breathe thru my nostrils how can i accept when the silence wins how can i become it really i don’t mind
10.
doctors 04:37
the doctors fucked you up when you were young & didn’t know how to protest it gone and lost yourself again in paroketh the first step to finding yourself again would u like to wander out there over yonder behind the horizon hides your new disguise i wish i could be more helpful but it’s your battle/your unveiling/your wedding i know u can do it i believe you are more powerful than i could ever show doctor’s needle closes in on me it’s kinky sinking down towards my vein he feels my breasts up writes another checkmark puts another level up on the tanner scale i love you doctor ((this part is ripped from the car seat headrest song “beach death”:) i wish i was a kid with an adult boyfriend)
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about

part 3/3
a prayer wheel by shin michaela thmaist
made in cooperation with the new cult of hermaphroditus salmacis

credits

released April 8, 2020

thanks to Amanda S for taking the cover photo
& to Casey W for helping record some parts & etc

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